I saw this image online and I immediately thought of Skylar and the girls. I’ve stayed off my blog for a few weeks (which I missed terribly) as I had much reflecting to do. I don’t always feel that I can offer much light in the midst of this darkness we call life, when my spirits are so low.
Here I sit on the cusp of Sky’s 17th birthday…….just 10 short days away. 4 days after that we will begin our trip to Florida…a trip that was to include Skylar, Sophie and Julianna. Crossing into Florida without them is going to break this mama’s heart. I’ve struggled a lot these last couple weeks with missing Sky’s presence so badly that I felt like I was taking 2 steps forward and 4 steps back. I suppose that is all normal in the grieving process.
There’s little to be said that hasn’t already been said about the pain I carry over missing these girls so much……but I will say that I feel your prayers. There is not a doubt in my mind that without God, friends/family and prayers I would not have survived this tragedy. But the devil has his own agenda and he tries desperately to knock me down. It amazes me the tactics he will use in doing so. Sometimes it takes my friends reminding me of this and help me put it all back in perspective. If he had it his way I would surely fall. I refuse to let that happen. My life will continue to be one that Skylar would be proud of. I want each decision and choice that I make to reflect the love I have for Jesus and my beautiful daughter. I’m human and I will fail at times but I know my ultimate goal.
The picture I posted above made me smile because I like to think that Skylar, Soph and Jules have that beautiful view 24 hours a day 7 days a week.