My heart has been heavy these past few weeks thinking of the girls last day on this earth. Many times the thoughts that flood my mind are not something I can control; but I am learning that most of these images are part of the grieving process and in order for me to properly grieve, I need to let them seep in and at times even allow them consume me. I need to feel and I need to be real with myself and know that the pain will always be there, nothing will ever change that.
It’s easy to allow the mind to take you to all of the dark places of grief, especially in a tragedy as massive as this. I am slowly learning that Sky would not want that of me. She would ONLY want me to remember her with a smile.
I pass the crash site twice a day, every day, on my way to work, and there isn’t a time that I don’t think of their last few minutes. I wonder what they were doing, what they were thinking, if they were singing, if they were texting…….I simply wonder. In my mind I refer to it as “their last ride”…… carefree and no doubt laughing and carrying on.
To know these 3 girls, was to love them. It seems cliche because they are gone so of course everyone professes their love for them…but it was different with them. I had the pleasure that so many will never get… I knew them and I loved them. I admire all 3 for being strong teenage girls in a time when being strong isn’t so easy.
Their last ride makes me ponder my own death and my own legacy. What will people say about my last ride? What will they say about yours?
Becoming a mother made me strive to be the best that I could be for my children…..losing part of my heart and soul makes me strive to be the best I can be for others. For those hurting….for those drowning in their grief and pain…for those who don’t think they can go on…..for those that think no one else gets it.
I hope someday people look back at my last ride and smile.
I know our angels took their last ride straight to the top.
This has become one my most favorite quotes:
“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.” – Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
We have two upcoming fundraisers for Sky’s Scholarship Fund: Save The Dates!
April 11, 2015 – 7:30pm – 2:00am — Fundraiser and 19th Birthday Party Celebration
Join us at Soft Rock Cafe in Centerville (21 & up) for live music, raffle prizes and more!
August 2, 2015 8:30am – 2nd annual 5K Memorial Run (starts & ends at Bellcreek Elementary in Bellbrook)
Link to register online: >> http://
If you want to mail in a paper copy please visit site below and print off paper registration: